What Astrology Gets Right
I just finished reading Chani Nicholas’ book You Were Born for This and I highly recommend it because it made reading your birth chart extremely accessible. I’ve tried in the past and I didn’t make it past the first astrology sign!
I use astrology or tarot cards as a way to deepen my understanding of myself and to see how ‘me being me’ influences my present and my future. I also find drawing a tarot card and using it as a journal prompt to be really helpful. I end up going down paths I couldn’t have imagined.
When people sign up to coach with me I send a questionnaire and one of my questions is “What is your level of belief in ‘woo’?” I am not an expert by any means, but I am learning more and more each day about tarot, astrology and crystals. For me, it’s about learning how to tap into my own inner wisdom, as well as the Universe (or God if you so desire).
This is a very broad overview of what I learned and I’m still processing a lot of it. In summary my birth chart (the date and time I was born and where I was born all feed into it) is:
Sun in Cancer
Moon in Leo
Rising Sign is Cancer
Ascendent Ruler is the Moon
So, what does that mean. First off it proves my friend Doug right who once said to me, “You are SUCH a Cancer.” I am, I really am. Here are some of the positives:
I sense what others need to see and hear and I offer support.
I am very good at communication and I relate to people in ways that can be transformative.
I have a strong sense of style (this one is true, but due to being fat I don’t often exhibit it. I’m doing a whole series on this next month).
I express myself creatively and take inspiration from creation. In other words crafting feeds my soul.
I am very good at creating space to/and form strong bonds with people.
Cancer holds memory, ancestry and history.
I like to feed people. Well, I like to nurture them, but that is usually through food so…
Basically I’m a nurturer and I like to plumb the depths of emotions—mine, and others.
If you know me, you are going to laugh at some of these negative attributes:
Since I feel so deeply I can be moody and emotional.
People sometimes see me as distant (crab in their shell).
I can be judgmental.
I often feel guilty or uncomfortable receiving praise.
I am emotionally defensive.
Overall it helped me to really accept and relish who I am as a person, even if I can be a little prickly sometimes. As far as how it influences my present or my future, it really made me see that I am on the right path. All of those positive attributes are ones that I roll into my life coaching practice daily. It really made me feel like I am on the right path. Although I may need to come out of my shell a little bit more.
Have you ever looked into your natal or birth chart? What did you find?
The Best Personality Quizzes. Who are you?
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I have had a few aha moments in my life when I stumbled across something that made me have a deeper understanding of myself. One was the book Quiet: the power of introverts in a world that can’t stop talking, which made me understand that I was an introvert and I was ok! Another was the book Highly Sensitive Person: how to thrive when the world overwhelms you. I’m a pretty empathetic person, which means I pick up and sometimes take on other peoples feelings as my own. It makes me an amazing coach because I can sense what you are feeling, but I have to have boundaries and not take on other peoples emotions. I also get overwhelmed sometimes in crowded or noisy places. It’s just too much stimuli. Growing up the world told me “You’re Too Sensitive” and then being able to own it and realize I’m ok as I am, well, that’s huge! If you are not an overly sensitive introvert, then read on, there are quizzes for you!
I love taking quizzes! Give me a buzzfeed quiz any day, but I’m not sure if knowing ‘Which French Dessert I Am Most Like’ will help me understand myself better, but I do have a few quizzes that can.
First up is The Four Tendencies quiz by Gretchen Rubin. I love this one because it helped me see what motivates me and what I need to set goals and meet them. I’m totally an Obliger. It also helps you understand other people. My friend Sheska and I were accountability partners and as an obliger I need help staying accountable, but Sheska is more of a Rebel and she wants to be able to report back what she accomplished. If I try to hold her accountable, she will push back and even if it is self-sabotaging, she won’t get it done.
Another fabulous quiz is the Sparketype by Jonathan Fields. What I love about this quiz is that you have a Primary and Shadow Sparketype. The shadow is the work you do well that is usually in support of the Primary. Plus you get your anti-Sparketype, which is the thing you are not good at. When you take the quiz you get a really great email with all the information. You don’t have to read the book Sparked, but it does have some helpful info. I am a Maven, which someone who pursues and has a love of knowledge, which I kind of knew. My shadow is the Essentialist, which is someone who is focused on processes and procedure. I knew I was good at this stuff, but to see it laid out was really helpful. My anti was the Performer, and while I do love to share knowledge and will get up on stage and give an amazing talk, I am not good at dissembling, or being able to hide my true thoughts and feelings.
My final quiz is a little different and is focused more on how do you take care of yourself. The Take Care Assessment from Inner Workout really takes into account who you are to give you a personalized profile on how to practice self care. My assessment really honed in on where I was neglecting myself and gave me some ideas to improve my well being.
If you take any of the quizzes let me know your results!
7 ways to stay ok even when the world is on fire
There is a lot happening in the news lately. Then again there has been a lot happening in the news for a few years. The world has been struggling through a pandemic and now the threat of war and we are all feeling worn down. The problems seem so huge and insurmountable that they make us feel helpless.
Yet, we get up every day, send the kids off to school, go to work and keep on living, even through the anxiety. Instead of feeling stressed, anxious and exhausted from the daily news, what if you could feel just a little bit better?
Limit your social media and news intake. This is hard for some people because they want to be an informed citizen of the world, which is great, but not at the cost of their mental health.
Make sure your news source is informative and not inflammatory. Twitter may not be the best source for your news for that reason.
Check who you are following on social media. If they aren’t adding positive value to your life then stop following them. Add some uplifting and positive accounts to the mix.
Make sure you are staying connected with friends, family or your family of choice. Isolating makes this feeling even more overwhelming.
Make a small contribution of either time or money to an organization that resonates with you.
Read this article “The news ≠ your life” by Oliver Burkeman
Be gentle with yourself. It’s sometimes hard to focus and move forward when the weight of the world is on your shoulders. Take gentle care of yourself.
If you need more support please reach out to me for a free coaching call. We all need a little extra help these days.
Thinking of the Future
I could never have imagined the life that I have now. Living on my own in Chicago in a beautiful sun filled apartment. I have friends and an amazing community of people. And yet, it was never a life I planned for. Don’t get me wrong, I am extremely grateful for what has come to pass but it was through accident and compromise that I ended up here.
I mentioned in a previous post that I have a history of depression and anxiety. When you have depression your energy is pretty consumed with getting up, going to work, feeding yourself and trying to get through the day. There isn’t much energy, or even capacity, to think about the future. Depression stole quite a few years of my life in my twenties and some of my thirties.
Being on the other side means I have space to think about the future and what I want to do and I am very grateful that I hired a life coach to help me see that the world was full of possibility. That there was a person out there who I will find to be in relationship with, that I can follow a different career path and that I can open myself up to dreaming about the future.
I think the biggest shift has been letting myself dream. Becoming a life coach was something I dreamed of years ago and slowly but surely I put all the pieces into play. If you want a space to dream then contact me for a free coaching call. Not only will you have some time to dream, but we can work together to put that plan into action.
When you are forced to slow down
I’ve had a few moments in my life recently where the Universe has said, “oh hey, yeah you, it’s time to slow down.” Of course I ignored those messages until then I got slapped upside the head and I was kind of forced to stop.
A few months ago I had a pretty severe case of burnout. For me the burnout felt a little bit like depression with a smidge of PTSD disassociation thrown in. I’ve been dealing with that for a huge chunk of my life and so I went off to my therapist to figure out what unresolved issue had reared its ugly head only to find out that my issue was current. I was burnt out. All my stress hormones were over firing and my body was calling for a time out.
When I was burnt out I couldn’t even read a book because there was too much spinning in my brain. I was really short with people, which I hated because that isn’t who I am. I was making a lot of little mistakes (I also was doing two jobs at the time, which lead to the burnout!), but I couldn’t focus long enough on one task to get it done right.
Of course I ignored the problem, until I couldn’t any longer. The main antidote for burnout is rest. A lot of rest. Slowly my mind and body started functioning again. Gradually I could read a book without the words blurring on the page because my mind wasn’t able to process them. The biggest shift was I started feeling like myself again. I felt optimism and laughter creep back in. My ability to interact with people shifted and I wasn’t reacting to everyone with anger.
Other things started to shift and I was able to pick up sewing again because my brain could finally figure out how to put the pattern pieces together. While in burnout I couldn’t process information. Lin-Manual perfectly exemplifies this in the video below!
I had to slow things way down in order to regain focus, clarity, energy, optimism, joy, laughter and so many other things.
What I wish I had done differently was pump the breaks sooner. I had been running on empty for a couple of years and then when more was expected of me, I had nothing to give and burnt myself out. I should have set boundaries with work. Do you know how many studies are out there that show if you are well rested your productivity increases? So many! Yet, we all believe that if we just put in more hours we’ll get it done. It doesn’t work that way because we are human beings with human bodies and not machines.
I wish I would have prioritized taking care of myself. For me that includes daily movement, journaling and a bit of crafting. Crafting is my form of meditation. Another thing all of the studies say is super good for you, yeah, meditating. I really should have been doing that.
If you need help prioritizing yourself and setting boundaries, then sign up for a free coaching call. I’d love to chat with you about how coaching can help you find your way back from burnout and make sure it doesn’t happen again.
Take Care of Yourself by Caring for something else
That little creature right there kind of saved me. In the early days of the pandemic when we weren’t sure how Covid-19 was transmitted and everything shut down I was very isolated. I remember one time going for a walk with a friend and craving contact and I made her stand with her back to me on a snowy street corner just to have a connection with someone.
I had been debating getting a bunny for many years, but they are a serious commitment. Two months into the pandemic Sweetie came home with me from Red Door Animal Shelter in Chicago. I asked to meet the bunny who had been there the longest and poor Sweetie had been adopted but due to Covid the adoption fell through. She was nine months old and not the cuddliest but she needed a home. So, I guess we saved each other.
While providing companionship was the main reason I got Sweetie, what I didn’t realize was that having something to care for took a lot of my attention (and anxiety) off of myself. Feeding her, making sure she had things to play with and chew on (that wasn’t my furniture), finding out her favorite places to sleep and making them comfy, keeping an eye on her if she had a stomach ache (bunnies get GI stasis, which can lead to death), and getting her to trust me meant focusing on something that wasn’t my own feeling of isolation and sadness.
I became slightly obsessed with her, I mean how could you not, look at that face! She became more comfortable with me and we found our daily routine, which involved her sitting in the chair next to me while I work and occasionally demanding to be pet, or hopping up on the table and showing up in zoom meetings. Our evenings involved treats and cuddles and she would hang out with me watching tv.
Having Sweetie in my life has been a delight. Having something to care helped my mental health so much. Plants also helped. Caring for them, making sure they were watered, or in my case, not overwatered put the emphasis on growing and taking care of something else. I think there is a reason we saw a proliferation of plants in everyone’s life and on instagram. It was a way to nurture for something when we were in need of nurturing.
Bringing a pet into your home is a huge commitment. Bunnies are super cute, but also super destructive. Plus their insurance costs more, they need grooming, lots of hay and greens, and toys to keep them engaged. Seeing all those pets returned to shelters or released in the wild has been heartbreaking. If a pet is too much of a commitment, then may I recommend a plant.
Should you see a therapist or a life coach
I had someone ask me this question the other day-Should I see a therapist or a life coach? First off, it is disclaimer time and I am not a therapist, but I have spent a good chunk of my life in therapy. I 100% believe in therapy and anti-depressants or whatever medication is needed to get one through life. I have at different points in my life been in therapy, or seen a life coach and at one point I was seeing both.
At its most simplified, therapy generally focuses on the past and life coaching is about setting future goals. Therapy is focused on your mental health and healing and life coaching is focused on helping you get clear on what you want in order to help you grow and succeed.
I have at times in my life suffered from PTSD, depression and anxiety. I thank therapy for helping me heal from the PTSD (especially EMDR) and the depression/anxiety combo. I still have to manage my depression and keep an eye on it, but it isn’t something I worry about on a daily basis. FYI most people who have just met me don’t know this about me. That is because I have done the work and I have had some amazing therapists in my life who have worked with me and given me the tools to live my life to my fullest.
On the flip side when you are juggling all of these things it doesn’t give you much time to think about the future or what you want to do with your life. That is when I turned to life coaching. I learned so much more about how my brain impacts how I am feeling and how I view the future and gave me the tools to change those negative thoughts. It gave me the space and opportunity to dream, refine those dreams and set goals to accomplish them. In fact that coaching is what lead me to becoming a life coach.
If you have unresolved trauma, are depressed and actively struggling with your day to day then I would say go see a therapist. If you aren’t sure, which one would be right for you, I would again say, go see a therapist.
If you are feeling a little adrift, unsure what you want to do with your life, career or relationship, have been through therapy but want to focus on your future plans, are feeling stuck or feeling unengaged in your life, then I’d say a life coach would be a great fit.
Coaching is a much more collaborative process, while in therapy the therapist is the expert and will guide your treatment plan. Coaching focuses on the life that you want to create and therapy looks at what you need to resolve or fix. In some cases coaches and therapists work together to support a client. It depends on each individuals needs.
If after reading this, or doing some research on your own, you aren’t sure, then I would suggest reaching out to a therapist first. If you want to talk more about what life coaching can do for you, then feel free to sign up for a free one hour coaching consult. I’d love to talk more about coaching.
Should-Less Days
I listened to an interview with the actor Ellen Burstyn on the podcast Death, Sex and Money years ago and one thing she said has stuck with me. She has days “where there’s nothing I should do," or should-less days.
I talked a little bit on my instagram page about how I was in a bit of a funk last week. I hit the reset button on my journaling, vitamin taking and movement, which helped a ton. Except, I was still not 100% me when I hit the weekend. When Sunday rolled around I realized there really wasn’t any use fighting it and so I had a should-less day.
The ‘should’s reared their ugly head. I should clean the house, do yoga (I think Sweetie has the right idea!), get some sewing done, do some journaling, or just get off the couch. Instead I took a nap, read and watched a little too much tv. When Monday rolled around I was feeling like myself again.
I think sometimes fighting the funk (notice I said funk, not depression, because it is a very different thing) is futile. I’ll just take a day and roll around in those funk feelings like a pig in a pigpen. That may mean eating comfort food, staying in my pajamas all day and overindulging in mind numbing activities.
The key here is to give it a day. Let go of the ‘shoulds’ and embrace your should-less day. Then hit the reset button and return to your routine. Have you had a should-less day lately?
I’m not a morning person
There. I’ve said it. I am not a morning person, which if you know me, well you know. I probably see a couple of articles a week saying something like “8 things every person should do before 8 a.m.” or “5 morning habits of highly successful people”. Those were ripped from the headlines!
The world is set up for morning people. If you have to be at work by 8:30 am and have a 45 minute to 1 hour commute (which I had) that means I had to be up by 6:30 in the morning to get to work in time. It wasn’t pretty.
Let’s not forget that if you aren’t a morning person the implication is you aren’t a highly successful person. Do you want to know what 8 things I’ve gotten done before 8 am. Not much. Ask me how much stuff I got done between 10am and 6pm and I’ve got a super long list! I’m not so much a night owl, more of a mid morning/late afternoon bird.
The first thing I had to do was to let go of the idea that I was a failure because I wasn’t up at 5am saving the world. The next was to let go of the notion that I had to have a strict morning routine and hit the computer running first thing. I had a great talk with members of The Grove Community and found that a) I wasn’t the only one who didn’t do mornings and b) maybe I should embrace my meandering morning.
Now I wake up naturally without an alarm. My fatigue has significantly dropped because I’m embracing my natural rhythm and not having to hit snooze 10 ten times (not an exaggeration). I get up, shower, feed the bunny and get dressed. Then I make some coffee and try to remember to do my morning pages. I usually do some reading, research or writing first thing, instead of jumping on emails, because this fuels me. Finally I hop on the computer and do administrative tasks.
My mood has shifted and I feel so much more productive in the mornings. Embracing my natural routine has made me feel so much more rested and I’m starting my day doing the work that fills me up so I can shift to the administrative tasks. Letting go of the notion that you have to be a morning person with an insane list of things to do before 8am has made me a happier, healthier human being.
The importance of journaling
Every time I feel my mood slipping downwards into depression I have to check to see if I’m doing a few basic things.
Moving my body (this can be gentle movement)
Taking my vitamins
Journaling
I find that these are the non-negotiable things I have to do daily in order to keep me a functioning human being.
I can’t tell you how many times a therapist or a friend has suggested that I should be journaling and OMG I have so much resistance to it! So, I dug into that resistance and maybe you’ll resonate with some of these things.
OMG I don’t want to have to feel this feeling
The journal can sometimes be a little too truthful and I don’t like what I see
I don’t have time (FYI I wrote a blogpost on this one)
What if I die and someone reads them
I get tired of having documentation of all my venting
Understanding what I was dealing with helped me talk myself off of the fear of journaling ledge. The reality is that I need to feel those feelings and I need to face my truth. Um, Dan if you are reading, if I die could you toss my journals (K thanks).
I went to a great class through Creative Mornings (highly recommend their Field Trips) and it was about Julia Cameron’s Artist’s Way. If you haven’t read the book it has a lot of useful ways to get connected with your creativity. If you haven’t and want to jump in there are two things from the book that I’ve incorporated into my day-to-day: The Morning Pages and The Artists Date.
Morning Pages are a way to do a massive mind dump. You are supposed to write three pages every morning first thing. These are not precious words or words that you are going to save. They are meant to clear out the crap and emotions you are holding onto and get them out on the page. It then opens you up to be present and creative. And it works. Until it doesn’t, which is because you’ve stopped doing them.
Why did I stop doing them (and FYI this has happened multiple times throughout my life)? I am not a morning person. The idea of getting up and rushing to do my morning pages hurts my very being. I need to wake up, shower, get my day started and then I can dive into my morning pages. Although, sometimes my day gets away from me and it’s evening. That’s fine. I’m still getting all the muck out of my head. Julia Cameron does not believe this is an effective use of the morning pages, but I figure done is better than perfect.
Since the morning pages are not meant to be saved I just use a cheap composition notebook. Once this one is filled up, I’ll recyle it and get another. I actually use a different journal for my business and yet another journal for personal day dreaming and goal setting.
The other thing I will continue to do is the weekly artists date. I love setting aside some time on the weekend to indulge in play and creativity. I’ve done some weaving, gone to the Garfield Park Conservatory, sewn, and taken photos over the last couple of months of doing my dates.
So how do you incorporate journaling or the ‘morning’ pages in your life. First, what comes up for you? What is your resistance? Acknowledge it and work through it. If you don’t, then you aren’t going to move forward.
I’ve find there are two ways to incorporate something into your life and make it a habit. One is to make it part of your routine. Find the routine trigger that works for you. If you do your journaling in the morning it may be having a cup of coffee signals time to journal. If it’s the evening, maybe it’s lighting a candle to signal it’s time to write. The Second way to get something done is to schedule it and put it on your calendar. That way the time is set aside for you.
What are you waiting for? Go get journaling!
If you want to talk about how to incorporate journaling into your life then please schedule a free coaching consult with me.