Space to Play
I don't know when it happened, but at some point I set aside the things that make me happy. Constant depression, starting a business and life can make that happen. Yet, I don't want just existing to be my new normal. I want to be driven by curiosity and a wondrous sense of adventure.
Ok great Kandy but why a blog? FYI I live alone and I talk to myself...a lot. Anywho. I was trying to remember when I first went abroad by myself to Amsterdam. That sent me down the rabbit hole of old blog posts and ticket stubs. It was 2004 by the way and that trip changed my life, but more on that later.
I started my first blog in 2006. It was oh so private and very few people knew about it. Going through old blog posts and reading about my breakup with my long term boyfriend, my attempts to start dating again, how I started a business, my craft projects and all the adventures I went on made me realize that there were a few very important things missing in my life.
The first is writing. I love blogging. I enjoy blogging for Meandering Design, but that blog is focused on interiors and I have wide ranging interests. I was also not as open and sharing on Meandering Design's blog because that's a business. Talking about my bad date and eating disorder just didn't belong in that space.
I have noticed that things have become much more visual and we take in information in tweet-bites. I'll definitely be sharing pictures, but I'm not going to worry about the quality so much. Over the years I've posted a lot of pictures on Instagram, but my blogging has taken a back seat. I'd like to change that.
I love crafting. It is a huge part of my identity. Except, I haven't been taking the time to pull out my crochet needles and yarn or my sewing machine. Thankfully, I started taking pottery classes at Lillstreet and that has filled some, but not all of the void.
The other piece of my puzzle that has been missing is exploration. I love trying new foods, going to art openings and finding the weird and curious places in the city. I do still make time to travel abroad once a year, but acting like a tourist in my own city has not been happening.
A blog gives me a writing outlet (I do give blog posts a quick edit, but I don't spend hours on these posts. I think if I let the writing style and grammar be too much of a focus, then I would be stuck in analysis paralysis and I would never hit post). I'll admit that it is nice to have a repository for my life. PTSD has robbed me of a lot of my memories and writing them down keeps them accessible. I also write because I've had some pretty crappy life experiences. I deal with depression on pretty much a daily basis and I hope that my story helps someone see that there are other people like them and that it is possible to get through it. Even if sometimes it means just making it through the day.
I plan on covering my life on this blog so expect a bit of crafting, anxiety and depression, minimalism, interior design, cooking, yoga as a plus sized girl, dating in this new electronic era and so much more.
I hope you'll follow along and join me on this adventure.